I feel icky...

I don't think I posted a damn thing yesterday.

Sorry, fair readers, as I have had problems with ulcers since I was eleven (yes, that's right...long story) and it is bothering me again. Really bothering me, as in when I don't take some pepcid when I wake up and before I go to sleep I feel as if I wouldn't mind dying...if that means the pain would go away.

Now, it is not a bleeding ulcer and I am seeing the doctor on Monday to change from these pills. I have come to the conclussion that they DON'T FUCKING WORK and the side effects (...the pain, the pain) don't justify the taking of them. Not to mention that I have been ever more bitchy-er and am sleeping even less at night now (I've gone from about 4 hours which were very spread out to less than that).

I spend about a good hour (on and off) crying on my husbands lap. Did I mention that I hate being sick?

Worse than that, I feel guilty when I am sick and somewhere in my mind I feel as if I've done something to make myself sick...My Mother was (is) Munchousan (not by-proxy [that being where the mother makes the child sick] but the true disease where they make themselves sick). It carries on in families and my Brother (crack-head...more recently called $5) is one as well.

This is why I never want to be sick!

I hate it when my kids are sick!

I hate it when my husband is sick!

I'm going to be a nurse and I HATE SICKNESS!

Maybe that's a good thing, maybe.

Smokey was talking about putting a picture of our Mom on the fridge as a remember to stay on the straight and narrow a few weeks ago when we talked. I'm thinking it's a good idea.

Still, this does not change the fact that I am in pain and can deny it no longer! So...I doubt I'll be posting tonight unless I experience a miracle (in which case, I will still be seeing the doctor on Monday and telling him that I NEED SLEEP and unless he is planning on coming over every night to sing me lullibies or knock me out with a mallet[I would prefer that to the singing] that he has to give me something to sleep...even for just a few days so I can feel normal!)

I have several pictures for the game that I need to down-load/up-load (?) and post them.

Right now though, I have to curl up on the couch and be still.

Does anyone love burn't grilled-cheese sandwhiches as much as I do?

As long as they stay down...that is.

(I'm not even going to bother with the spell check today...Too....Much....Work...)