Mermaid Costume...Anyone?

Some times...I just hate the world wide web. I need to get started on my son's and daughter's halloween costumes if I'm going to have them done by October. My little girl really wants to be a mermaid. The only patterns I can find for them are either really ugly or hoochi-mamma-style, and I can't do that to my daughter...not to mention I would have no idea how to down-scale the pattern. So I'm asking...Does anyone have any easy ideas for a pretty mermaid costume that's suitable for a little girl?

No title...so the poemster doesn't feel left out...Tee-Hee!

Harvest time is coming
I feel it in the air
Though it is not close enough
 I see it sitting there
And feel its breath
Upon me, as I stare at Heavens bliss
I sit and wait, not silently
My voice echoing in the mist
Neal down on her blanket
Set your voice adrift
Fall will hear you calling
Her entry with leaves-a-falling
And you shall hear me calling
My voice echoing in the mist

It’s been raining here for days now.  I suppose that is what has me in such a good mood.  It’s like my skin, my energy, my very soul stirs with electricity as each drop of rain falls from the sky.  Rain is a very moody weather.  Most find it dark and depressing, but that is because they don’t know my secrets.  The rain’s secrets.  They don’t feel the vibrations in the storms.  The music as the wind howls and the soothing caresses as the rain drums on the soft soil.  I can almost hear the earth rejoicing as its thirst begins to slake.  I can smell autumn in the air!  Halloween is coming!  My favorite holiday!  Now don’t go thinking I’m some sort of Wiccan-witch-devil-worshiper…far from it.  Halloween is just a time when adults and children alike can pretend to be someone different.  The air is filled with a spookiness that makes us smile…and maybe gives us a good scare.  I can smell the pumpkin seeds as my mind conjures up memories from Halloweens long past.  I’m so excited.  Halloween party at my house…you’re all invited!  Just remember costumes are required!  I think I’ll be Velma from Scooby Doo this year; my daughter wants to be a mermaid.  Does anyone have any idea of what they’re going to be this year?  I’d love some ideas as people keep asking us what they should dress up as for this year’s party.  Let me know…I’m already starting to decide what new decorations I’ll be getting and putting up.  I’ll have to take pictures of the place when it’s finished and post them for everyone to enjoy. 
PS…
Thanks to all who wished me luck…I feel I did well on my finals.

My Journy Through School

In some one else’s mind
I see me
I see me as myself, and
Who I’d like to be
And who I used to be
Thankful, God is kind
Thankful He loves me

My path is getting shorter
As I see my goal’s in reach
Life is hard to teach
A life I’m walking out on, yet
It clings on like a leach
Two more years of which I speak

Oh and then, what joy will come
What a weight shall lift that day
When I’ll have time to sing
And I’ll have time to play
They will surely hear me say
Hurray!

Taking A Break

I'm always amazed by the stupidity of some people.  Or maybe it is their "brilliant personalities?" 
During closing arguments in my debate, a girl from the opposing side stepped up to bat.  Well, I have to admire that at least.  Few people have what it takes to get up and make an idiot of themselves.  I have never heard such a load of bull!  She totally misconstrued everything that was said and what was more her arguments were extremely weak. 
The topic being debated was the one I mentioned before...the power of the president in foreign policy.  She was of course on the "pro" side, who were trying to prove that the president didn't have enough power.  We were on the "con" side, who were proving that the president had too much power.  (LOL...I suppose I am a little biased)  We were using the constitution to prove the limitations of the presidents powers and how he abuses them.  Bla bla bla, I know you all don't want to hear the boring details. 
I'll get to the point.  At the end of her horrible argument she said, and I quote, "Now that I have convinced you that Bush needs more power in the foreign affairs thang...I know ya'll'll vote for him."  (Tee-hee...and some giggles)
Needles to say...I didn't have anything to say after that because I was amazed at what she had just spoke.  I just wish I could have tapped the whole thing...I will remind you all that I do live in Oklahoma and yes, some of us do have an accent.  Hers was the worst red-neck-hick-ti-fied one I have had the unpleasantness of hearing.  It made the entire thing laugh-a-ble. 
So I ask...how do you argue with that?
Anyway...back to the books...one more final test tomorrow!   Then I'm done for three weeks!

Just Letting Everybody Know...

This is my finals week!  I am not going to be posting until probably Thursday, but I will try to post a comment here and there in between now and then.  I'm starting tomorrow out with a bang.  Debate time...our last debate is 8am tomorrow and I will get my final exam for that class (which is a take home that will be due on Wednesday).  I will be taking a lab test either Tuesday or Wednesday and I will have my Anatomy and Physiology II final on Thursday.  Amongst all of that I will have one final lab (just a lab not a lab test) and a Quiz in government to get done.  Yeah college!  (again with the dripping sarcasm I know, sigh) 
Wish me luck!

Red Neck Barbie?

I was looking at pictures of Strawberry Shortcake and then Barbie and stuff on the web with my daughter...when I came across this horrific characterization of the blonde doll we know and love.  Even my daughter said, "It's yucky!"
...just thought I'd share.

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Clash of the Titans

Why is it that when I have studying to do...there is always something good on television.  Yet, when I don't have shit to do they're playing Leave it to Beaver, Little House on the Prairie, and Golf.  I mean, come on, we have cable and there isn't anything to see?  Most of the day is spent listening to SpongeBob Squarepants and Blue's Clues anyway, but come night time you'd think they'd show more interesting programs.  Oh well, I suppose I should be studying anyway.  It's just so damn hard to pass up The Clash of the Titans!  Especially since Perseus is so hot!  I'm just a sucker for the classics, hehehe.

Indiana Jones and the TEST of Doom?

Sitting in my class room
Nervousness sits in
The student’s eyes reflect sheer doom
As our professor waltzes in
 
Are you ready?
He asks, to take the test
The air is heavy
As we try our best
 
I nod my head
And try to be brave
A review? They said,
Sweating like Hebrew slaves
 
The teacher Okays it
While questions we ask
He tries to explain it,
But its test time at last
 
Two to the hallway
To expel their lunch
Nothing to say
As our eye brows did bunch
 
With ten minutes left
We can now use our notes
My notes I had left
At home, that’s no joke
 
Were there any A-makers
As our tests we passed in
It’s been dubbed a window-maker
By some of the men

"...Look into my eyes and tell me what you see."

Okay, is there anybody who likes Love At First Bite, with George Hamilton as much as me?  I'm sitting here watching it thinking...it's one of the worst movies ever made.  Yet, I love it!  It's like looking at a bull dog...it's so ugly it's cute, type of thing.  My favorite part is the dance number!  I usuall watch most of it, but somewhere around the car chase at the end I end up turning.  It's just one of those movies you have to turn to when you see it on.
Man, I'm such a dork, hehehe. 

*Giggles* I'm going to be an Aunt...again!

Wow!  I’m just so excited I can hardly stand it!  My step-sister is pregnant! 
I have been feeling worn down and sick with a head cold for a few days.  My class this morning was going to watch a video that wasn’t even going to be tested on…so I missed class and took a benedryl to ease my aching head.  I was lying next to my husband thinking about getting up and starting the day, when the phone rings and decides for me.  I answer and my step-mom asked how I would like to have a new cousin for the kids to play with.  I have to admit, I wasn’t completely awake and it took a minute or two for it to register.  My step-sister is going to be a wonderful mother.  I know she’s wanted kids for a while.  Wow, just wow! 
They were calling to get the name of my doctor and that kind of thing.  I was and am still in shock.  I think it’s ebbing though, because I just can’t quit smiling.  My kids have many cousins, but they never get to see them.  Mostly because my side of the family can’t stop arguing to get along for five minutes.  That and they’re all much older than my kids and aren’t very interested in playing with a 2 and a 4 year old.  This is just so wonderful.  My step-sister isn’t going to be able to get rid of me now; I’m going to be at her house all the time.  And…I fully intend to be doing some baby-sitting for her.  Wow!..I’ve got another niece or nephew on the way! 
I just can’t wait.  She just got married back around St. Patty’s day and they just got a house up here in the same town as me.  Headache or not…I am totally pumped. 
I wish her well and that God will bless her child and keep them both safe.  She’s a wonderful person and I’m very lucky to have her as a sister.  God, I can’t wait to go shopping for the baby. 

For My Children

As the sun quietly sinks behind me
I realize how my life ought to be
And I ponder how it could’ve been
Had I taken the road of things not seen
 
Though I think and I wonder
I am not sad I’m a mother
Two babes so dear
Who make it clear
To me, why I’m here
And not another
 
Now the struggle makes me cold
For them I still am bold
My precious girl and boy
My precious pride and joy
 
I sit back and watch them
Holding close and teaching them
How things ought to be
How much they mean to me
What it means to be free
To know life as a priceless gem
 
The beauty in their eyes
My worried mother sighs
Oh, how I love to hold on
To my daughter and my son
I hope one day they’ll know…
For them this all was done

Konichi--what?

I was thinking and am a little peeved.  The United States of America doesn’t have a national language, like I had previously thought.  It hadn’t occurred to me that English wasn’t the national language, but as it turns out we just don’t have a national one.  Apparently, “we” don’t want to piss off our neighboring countries by adopting a national language.  Yet, our neighboring countries aren’t doing the same.  I guess besides the fact that immigrants choose to move here and live here in “our” land and refuse to speak the language here…but if we moved to Germany or France (etc.) we’d have to learn their language.  Nobody is worried about offending us.  Anyway, my point is…if we aren’t going to adopt a national language, then I think we should quit forcing our schools to teach 12 years of English on our students.  Don’t you think?  I mean we aren’t teaching Spanish from grade school up, but we have English class as early as pre-school.  
Hmm…I was just wondering, anyway.  That’s my opinion and I’ll get of my soap box for today. 
*smiles*
 
P.S.  
Don’t get me wrong…I’m not saying that as a nation we shouldn’t learn to speak another language besides English.  In fact I think that it would be beneficial for us to do so.  I encourage my daughter to speak Spanish, as we watch Dora the Explorer, but I just don’t think that we should have to conform to another country’s ways when it must not have been too good over there in the first place.  If it was better there they wouldn’t have come over here.  How can we placate them like we do as a country?  It’s not beneficial to them either. 

Blue-tongued Skink

I was looking up pet lizards and how to take care of different types and I came across the blue-tongued skink.  I am just going to have to save up for one of these babies.  Isn’t he beautiful?  God, just love reptiles…and if my husband wasn’t so freaked out by them, I would have a snake.  Alas, I won’t push the issue…but he’s got to deal with lizards.  I have two annuls…thanks, impart to our friend—pitch4K (or whatever alias he’s using now).  I love my annuls, Aillen and Arawn, but they aren’t the kind you pick up and pet.  Annuls are small lizards that eat crickets and hide in leaves.  Easy to take care of, but they are fast little suckers and easily frightened.  Hence, I can’t pet them.  I talk to them like an idiot though…the same way I talk with my cat. 
So anyway, I can’t even remember how I did it, but I talked my man into letting me get a big lizard.  He knows how much I would just love another cat…or dog for that matter, so I can have a big lizard to pet.  Yeah!  I’m going to have to start looking for names for my soon to be pet.  I’ve got the tank and everything, but a water dish ($10) and a light bulb ($8). 
So…does anybody know any good lizard names?  That is, excluding God Zilla or Reptar. 

Cops can be fun

Okay...Wednesday at my government class we had a guest speaker.  Mr. Something (can’t use his real name), who is an Oklahoma City Police Officer.  I was rather surprised at his mannerisms.  One of my older brothers is a cop (same area) and he’s nothing like this man was.  My brother is very quiet and (for lack of a better description) proper.  This man was both funny and serious at the same time. 
Let me set the scene.  The class room is quiet, like always, and waiting for the teacher to arrive.  About 5 minutes before our teacher arrives the officer does.  He walks in with all the confidence of a King and sets his hand outs on the table next to his tag-a-long bag.  He then proceeds to set this giant BONG on the table and tells us we have just enough time to hit the communal bong before class.  Now, I’m totally freaked out and am laughing hysterically.  The officer smiles and lifts his hands saying that he was just kidding.  He just wanted to make sure that we were all awake.  After that, yeah, we were all awake. 
Needles to say, I now know how to keep from getting a DUI and know way too much about my rights as a citizen.  Who’d have thought that police officers could have so much personality?

Strange Dreams

I was wondering today. Pondering over a dream. Feeling a bit more myself today.
I dreamed that I was somewhere deep in a forest. A forest too beautiful to exist, with bubbling brooks and sparkling streams. I believe there was a small cascading fall near one of the ponds. Magical. Mystical. I felt as if maybe I walked with the faeries, yet I saw no other around.
It was a strange dream. I swear I could feel the thick moss on the bottom of my feet, like moist fleece socks. The wind felt cool on my face and in my hair. I was myself, but not.
Sometimes I was looking at myself through my minds eye…I speculate. Other times, most of the time, I was seeing through myself. First person.
I walked. Following trails and some sense of where I needed to go, I went. From time to time I paused to touch something: a smooth rock, the cool water, a velvet petal. My dream was so rich in sensations. I knew when I was where I needed to be. For I just stayed and breathed. And I breathed deeply. That was all.
I woke up wrapped in my husbands arms…safe and warm…loved. I lay there in bed for quite sometime before I found the strength to start the day. And I found the strength in his arms. I could breathe deeply in his arms.
Dreams are funny things. I very rarely remember one with so much detail. I recall only 3 other times in my life when I did. Even then they were more nightmares than a dream. I can’t shake the images from my head. So easy to forget them in the sticky fog that is “waking up,” but I remembered it.
So…what does it mean? I don’t know, but I am feeling more of myself today.

Seemed kinda...fitting

“I’m just a little black rain—cloud
Hovering under--the honey tree
I’m just a little black rain—cloud
Pay no attention—to little me”

“Every one knows that a rain—cloud
Doesn’t eat honey—no not a nip
I’m just floating around
Over the ground
Wondering—where—I—shall—drip”

---Winnie the Pooh

....

Broken!
I'm broken inside
A pain I can't hide
Maybe, I don't want to

Tears!
They still stain my cheeks
Are bound to be 'round for weeks
I cannot escape the truth

Pain!
In my heart, my soul
Betrayal darkened me like coal
I believed you
I believed you

Why? Can anyone give me a good reason why? Why someone can brake your heart over and over? Why do I still choose to give them the benefit of the doubt, only to be disappointed...every time? I guess I should expect it by now, but I just keep hoping that maybe...maybe one day they'll prove me wrong.
Not much more to say...I have to pick up the pieces now. I'll probably keep on letting her break my heart. I can't do any other but to love her...family is supposed to stick together, right?
Sorry, grampa...I don't guess I was strong enough to keep my promise to you.

What a BEAUTIFUL day!

Seventh day sun
Oh, wasn’t it fun
I slept the morning in
Seventh day sun
You know it was fun
By the state of mind I’m in

Heaven in the sky
As life passes us by
Come on, let’s jump in
Heaven in the sky
Don’t let it pass by
In the state of mind we’re in

D-Bate!

Okay…here I go again, delving into politics when I have no business to do so.
I have another debate and I loved the input I got last time I posted about one…
So here goes: Does Bush have too much power in the United Nations?
It seems a touchy subject, because as I search for answers…there’s not much to look up. I’ll be doing a lot more research this weekend. Hopefully, I will come up with some good reasons why he has too much power over the UN. (That’s the side I got put on/names out of a hat)
So…good people, not that politics and weekends were meant to be spent together, but what do you think?
Oh, and if anyone knows any other sites besides CNN.whatever, that would give me a better low-down on the goods…I’d be mighty obliged.

S-A-T-U-R-D-A-Y NIGHT!...oh wait, it's only Friday...my bad.

So, it is Friday night…What is everyone doing? For a soon to be 26yr old, I’ve turned into an old fart! I’ll check to see what’s on AMC’s Friday Night Fright Night, and probably do some reading and writing. That’s just about it.
I was just wondering what everyone else is going to do to pass the time.
Anybody out there?

Sharing Smiles

The sun will shine again
Your heart will weep no more
The sun will shine again
Your hopes and dreams will soar
And I'll be with you friend
I hope to show you more

The rain will cease to fall
Your tears will dry up too
Anything, just call
And I'll be there for you

I see the hope still shines
In your eyes and in your heart
I know those worried lines
By the windows of your heart
Remember the good times
As did you, we played our part

This is for everyone who is in need of a hug. I know I'm in dire need as are many of our friends here on the web. Remember that you're not alone...Never alone.

Why...just why?

Well, I am officially the worst mommy on the planet. I got up this morning at 8 and got the kids up. I get them something to eat, a fresh drink, change my son’s diaper, put clothes on my naked girl, and search for something for me to wear when I get out of the shower. I have to leave at 9:30 to get to the college at 10am. I spend my morning at the lab reviewing for my lab test and then taking it. This took me to 11:15am. I now have about two hours before my class at 1pm. Knowing that I wouldn’t have time to go home and do much more than turning around to go back, I brought a book and stopped by to speak with a counselor.
Bla bla bla…yada yada yada…and some more BS. I got to see the counselor I wanted and was mostly glad to see her. Some of the classes I need to take are already full up after only 2 days of being open. She tells me not to worry, because they are going to try and start another of the pharmacology classes because the others were full. But she doesn’t know when they’ll open it or if it will even be opened. Bla bla bla…not to worry because I can just take an extra couple of classes that I’ll need for my BSN and Masters. I’m thinking, God, I’m already a semester behind from where I wanted to be because they added more classes. Now I have to wait another semester. I was hoping to start the nursing program in spring, but now not until next fall!
So anyway, my day is just getting better by the minute, right. So I go up to the third floor where my class is (taking the stairs, because I’m trying to stay somewhat fit for all the damn reading I’m doing). I go into my room with an hour still before my class starts. I pop my book out and start reading Maggie Shayne’s Two By Twilight. Part of her vampire series that I’m so fond of.
Now, I have to leave class about 30min. early to get back home so my husband can leave for work by 3:30pm which is when my class is suppose to get out. I have to stop by the store today as well and get more diapers, some milk, bla bla.
Okay, I get home right…the house is more of a wreck than it was before I left. The bed isn’t made and the only thing that kept me from loosing my mind is that the trash had been pulled. Well, dear heart leaves for work. *kiss*kiss*bye*bye*
Then it really starts. My son wouldn’t quit screaming, I found out why when I finished picking up the house and go to change his diaper. He has diaper rash, great. Poor thing, no wonder he wouldn’t quit. Then my daughter messed herself, which she’s really to big to be doing and then they both start fighting and just…just being a four and a two year old! I yelled at them and sent them into their rooms..."and the quilt washes over me." I am SO ready for bed!

I Stand And I Love You

Sometimes, when we aren’t thinking about it and we aren’t concerned with it…it arrives. Sitting up last night with my wonderful husband, I realized my life couldn’t be better. So what if we’re struggling, so what if times aren’t the best, so what? In my life I have a wonderful and caring husband. In my life I have two wonderful and good children. I have a small family and a house to call my own. I’m fortunate, very fortunate.
I have to sit back and wonder what I did to deserve this…I don’t remember being an angel. It’s great that God doesn’t care about that.
I’ve run all week long, doing crap that had to get done. The weekend was supposed to be without tedious house work. Didn’t quite turn out like that. All in all, it hasn’t been that bad. The world didn’t end because the house isn’t sparkling.
Mid-terms are coming up already and I need to go enroll for the fall semester. I’m just not looking forward having to deal with those stupid counselors they have me speak with. They just frustrate me. Not only do I have to work up the courage to go down and speak with them, I also have taken to writing down any questions that I have so they won’t ignore what I ask and change the subject. How do they even get hired? Hmph! I guess I shouldn’t get so upset with them, but I usually come home with tears after having to deal with their “procedures.” …Ah, but to be out of school in two years will be reward enough! I’ll thumb my nose at them and never go back, I’ll be going to OU for my BSN and Masters. I think I’m even beginning to let myself be persuaded to go for my PhD in nursing later. We’ll see, I’ll cross that bridge when I come to it.
I needed last night, badly. It was a reaffirmation of my love for Kirk as well as my children. I guess when you’re with someone for so long it becomes difficult to remember, why. Why are we with them, again? I laugh, but it’s really not a laughing matter. You know they say the number one reason for divorce is money. And believe me it’s been tight around here, if not non-existent at times. I hope the old adage is true about families being closer due to hardships…because it’s been a struggle. There have been many tearful night while trying to figure out, how are we going to make it through the next two weeks on $80? But you know, God didn’t let me down, even when I let Him down.
This is the reason I’m going to school…for my children, for my husband, but mostly for myself. I want to offer my children a better future, small joys, the little things. I want to be on equal standing as far as my pay check and my husbands pay check (I’m for an equal income house-hold). Mostly, I just want to be able to not worry about paying the bills or putting food on the table.
Well, I guess I’ve been long-winded enough. I’m not sure what I was hoping to do by my posting this but…here it is.
Through heart ache and pain
Your tear drops like rain
I stand and I love you
My thoughts might be heavy
So many burdens we carry
Still, I stand and I love you
I know it’s been hard
Life throwing its card
Still, I stand and I love you
You never will know
The love that you sow
Sprouted roots where I stand and I love you

4th Of July

Well, now…I had said that I wasn’t going to be on here this weekend. Hmph! Like that kept me away.
I had fun last night at my sister’s house. Sister…she’s my step-sister, but she called me sister all the same. It felt great! I am so lucky for knowing her.
Anyway, lots of people showed up and we played a game called cups. I am really good at flipping them onto their tops…that is until it was my turn and people were yelling at you to miss it. I still didn’t do to bad and as for the yelling, I was doing it to the other team as well. It was all in good fun.
I just thought I’d open up the forum for some good 4th of July stories…

Jewish humor?

Okay, I almost didn't believe this myself, but my mother-in-law doesn't lie. Did anyone know that Jewish Humor is a college class that you can get credit for? How...What...Why? Why? Can you imagine the need for that credit. I can't.
And who determines your qualifications for teaching such a class? I need to change my major...Wonder if I can get my PhD in that! I mean, why be a nurse if you can teach Jewish people how to be funny.
Do you think that they sit around and critique Seinfeld all day?
I just had to say, "Oh, my!" Thought that this was worth sharing, and I'm glad my mother-in-law filled me in. What are our colleges coming to these days?